a day with hakim

had a great time spending time with hakim today,we went to vivocity. supposedly we should catch a movie body of lies but the time slot is very late at 2300 so forget it. we went to out usual spot at raffles n hang out there,take picture.,shoppping... had a small arguement with my bf over the phone but we're ok after that... i dunno.... hehe i'm so damn tired now. p/S: miss video call with izzy,it seems like we're now fall apart. not so sure because of what....

karaoke @ cashbox studio

i would like to thank adnan n fit for organizing this great outing! hehe i started to love singing,relieve my stress away.there was fit,adnan,syafiq,naf,nazir,cha,cha fren,hin,izzaki,idin,faiza n ANWAR hehe i duet with him,so damn funny.me n syafq sing this duet song name "metal vs Dugem" i guess... by project pop haha.at the end of the day we sing isabella.i love u guys alot for being there for me n tried to cheer me up when i'm down.love u muackz!

life goes on

farid picked me up after work just now,really appreciate it.We had a talk inside the bus n i asked him who's the girl inside the facebook n he said fadilah.Farid&Fadilah hehe nice. Deep in my heart i feel so jelous to look at the photos of his girl frens.Dunno why. i know i should trust him but sometimes i just feel like a fool.i feel that all his frens are pretty/beautiful but look at me... wat do i have? nothing...nothing at all.Nothing to be proud of.almost had a fight with him just now abt the photos but i tried to keep it cool. we're settle n ok but i still can't take it. he post all his beautiful frens but my photo is only like half of it? i dunno why am i crying again when we're still together. my heart is shattered.oh god.fadilah is beautiful seriously,prettier than me,i don't blame him of having a crush on her or wat.i'm a bit dissapointed when he didn't told me he got facebook.i dunno.... i love him but my heart says no. yes it's true i'm jelous but i have no courage to tell him that,we'll end up fighting again.... i feel insecure,thinking abt it really make me feel hopeless. i wanna run away frm my problems. does he care abt me?
Hidah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! wake up!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! open ur eyes,heart n soul!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i love farid alot n i hope he does feel the same way too... but if he doesn't he have to tell me the truth.i can handle the truth.

break up is painful

hi, previously i wrote abt breaking up with my bf because of facebook etc etc. As usual,we can't be seperated no matter what happen.we love each other so much.we had a talk... very long conversation! not only my bf n me cried but my mum cried too n i don't really know why hehe. Actually i've made up my mind to break up but there's something abt him that i just can't let this relationship go.I would like to thanks my frens especially Izzy for being there for me when i'm at the lowest point of my life n also fit,anisa for trying their best to cheer me up.i love u all muackz... n to Farid... i love u alot too,even more...

thanks izzy

Thanks Izzy for letting me share my problems with u

Farid n me like hanging.I know that i have to be strong no matter what. after hearing this n that, i heard that farid has a facebook which i don't even know. Fuck. he told me "i don't even know how to sign up fo friendster etc etc...." and end up he has facebook. big fuck?

now,seriously my life is in a mess now.... BIG mess. n i can only turn to Izzy,Ana & Fauzi. haiz................................................................................................

I have to wake up!!!!!!!!!!!!!! be strong hidah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! u don't need a man to survive!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! n u don't need farid to rely on!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Regrets....Remorse

27 November 2008

"what goes around,comes around... What goes up must come down"

well,had a bad day. when someone told u ur bf is enjoying himself with another gurl. i'm crying now. i just can't take it. just can't.........

a night at Chijmes!

9th November 2008

firstly.. happy 5 yrs 3 months anniversary dear.. :) hope that our relatationship will last with lots of love among us.

Yesterday i fetch my little cousin frm the airport , just came back frm china for basketball tournament. Adnan called me when at around 6 pm and asked me out with faiza n idin... to catch a game Arsenal vs Man u @ chijmes.

So i met them at around 9 pm at chijmes while fit watching anuar zain concert at esplanade. she had a lot of fun there...

After we fetch fit... we went to spize!! to eat...

I would like to thanks Adnan for the ride---Subaru dok!! hahaha n yah almost every week we C each other n hopefully it will continue like this forever.

Next stop.... overseas trip maybe bali

Silence means unhappy

2nd October 2008

Happy hari raya... Eid mubarak! well i had a great time yesterday with all my relatives. But still... SOme of my cousins will be sitting for their exams. Good luck to them.

Today,me n my bf went out,as usual we drive. Went to PS,orchard... my intention is to spend more time but.... he want to go back early cause he's tired.

I was mad...






i don't have mood to talk abt it


Whatever happen...happen. He don't care so am i....

Friends

14 September 2008

Thank you Fit for organize this outing. Really appreciate it. Well... i had a great time together with my secondary school friends. Adnan drive his subaru n Anwar drive his van.

We went break fast together at Beach road n the food was just ok... not that WOW.Then thought of going to Geylang but some of us think is pack so Idzharul decided that we go Bowling! n i got 1 strike! hehe...

I had a great time! should do it more often. My bf.....well he's working. nothing much. Friends are forever!

A day with hakim.. :)

6 September 2008

Yesterday i tried to enter this blog webby but i can't.. i think something wrong with the connection. Well.... it was fun yesterday!

I met Hakim at Funan n we went to Geylang. Thought of break fast there but the weather was not that good. It was stuffy & hot.He wanna get a "Songkok" for himself but no size! well Hakim... u really have a big head! i wanna break fast at Arab street "Victory" so he decided that we should take a bus frm Geylang, but before that we went to 7-11 to top up his Ez link card. Guess who we saw there as a cashier?? Hyder! hahaha he's funny, he was our school mate in ITE n we went to the same CCA-Bridge Leader. He can't remember us until we have a chat for a while with us. Oh yah... Hakim just bought a new camera. kindda nice. he can't stop taking picture of the nice environment and took picture of me too! hehe

We reach at Arab street but the seat are full at Victory,so we went to the new shop beside it. Actually there's no seat also but they created a seat for us! we were like a big star cause everyone in the shop look at us one kind. We sat side by side together like a married couple.We eat rice,curry chkn(it was nice!!!) n some vege... The price quite affordable. Next.... to Clarke Quay...

Took picture at Clarke Quay,admiring the night scenery n we enjoy it... Btw,Hakim just finish his night shift yesterday n he didn't sleep at all.He can take it. I take my hat off you. Next...Took a bus 197 to Jurong East.

Inside the bus, we slept. Very tired,i'm from work straigt away met hakim but he's more tired than i am. He slept alot in the bus.... And i thought that our day was over, it's going back home time. But i was wrong. Next... Jurong Entertainment...

We went to KFC...he's hungry n i'm not but i have to eat also cause it's kindda akward if he's eating n i'm not. Finally home...

Hakim, I enjoy myself hanging out with u yesterday! it's been a long time . Love ya

Happy Ramadhan...With new meaning

3rd September 2008

Salam.. friends! Ramadhan Kareem....

Well i just woke up,will be going off to work later after shower of course! this year Ramadhan InsyaAllah will make me a better person as a muslimah. No vulgarities/rude/etc etc.... I'm down with flu now but Alhamdulillah i can manage to Fast. God just wanna test me in this month which i much appreciate cause he still remember me as his Ummah.

This Ramadhan i try my very best to be more quiet n patience in whatever things gonna come to me. :) and not to forget... to lose weight! :)

Ok.. I'm off now to shower.... going to work!

Once again Happy Ramadhan.... RAmadhan Kareem....

A day with Fauzi

28 August 2008

I went n meet Fauzi at City Hall at ard 1600 n he's late! hehe... We went to the IT fair at Suntec City.Actually i would like to buy an iPhone but i think next time when the price is right :).

We reached at Samsung Mp3 when there was this sale... Buy 1 mp3 get another for free,so i gave away the free one to Fauzi. Hopefully he likes it :)

I would like to thank him for treating me.. not only food but... hehe i'll never reveal here.It's between me n him.

We walked at the esplanade n took some pictures,he send me off at the bus stop but, when the bus arrived n i hail,the bus didn't stop.Guess what... it's the wrong bus stop! it's futher down. So embarrased cause people were looking at me like a fool! hehehe

Well... i hope this will not be the last outing together... after like 4 years then we met!

And there's my boyfren... we went all the way to east coat to eat the bbq chkn wings!! it's nice!hehe i enjoy myself there with him too!

It's been long time....

22nd August 2008

Hi....
Well today i met my Bf,he just finished his reservist(thank god).So he spend most of the time with ME! i'm not torturing him it's just that he's too free. He only start work on wednesday. Have a good rest Dear........

Yesterday, i was morning shift and i bump onto my colleagues so we went to level 3 cause she wanna get a 30 cent drink! hehe. We took a lift after that..... i saw HAkim!! well.... he's getting chubby now but we didn't talk that much cause i'm very sleepy n tired n one thing abt me is that i hate to talk early in the morning... Actually i miss hanging out with Hakim... Miss ya buddy

FAuzi!
hahaha my handsome friend that i can never get..... one day i'll drive my Honda to ya place n we hang out.. hhhmmmm... i think it's been like 3 or 4 yrs we never meet!

what else..... i'm living my life to it's fullest now

oh yah! congratulation to Dorra for having her first baby gurlll....! she's so adorable!

Tomorrow... gonna meet hidayat/tracy/irda/anisa to celebrate hidayat birthday! :)

Dye my hair

6th August 2008

I went out from my house at 1030,going off to work. I took a train from CCK n i sat down,less than 5 mins i felt pain on my middle finger left hand.I checked out n i saw this small sharp thing went thorough my nail.So when i reach at Jurong East interchage i straight away go to Guardian to buy a nail clipper,hopping that,that thing can get out frm my nail. I'm looking for "carefree" feminine wash but they don't sell it at Guardian so i went off to NTUC,they don't have it either.Inside the NTUC i received a call from my workplace,as usual asked me to take Annual Leave n i did. Before i head home,i stopped by Watson to buy the feminine wash.

When i reach home my mum ask me out. If she asked me out my $$$$$ also out! i'm broke.We bought DIY hair dye by Loreal. Mine is like light brown n it's quite visible unlike my mum,doesn't look like she dyed.It's the same to me. hehe

I told my BF n Fauzi abt it.My Bf laugh at me n he's in the jungle-i should laugh at him cause he's sweating! the weather was unbearable but i hope he's doing fine.I miss him alot! Hope that he can book out soon... n fauzi said i'm always gorgeous hahahaha

new fan

5th August 2008

00:51
Just came back frm shopping with my BF @ Mustafa Centre hehe of all the places.... i bought a new fan cause my old fan is not that cool enougn for me. Actually i just have to clear the dust but the thing is i don't know how to dismantle the fan.
My BF is going to Reservist today at 8 am... That's y we went to Mustafa Ctr to buy last min things etc powder/shaver/deodarant n more.gonna miss u dear alot! take care of urself at the jungle.

Inside the mall i saw this familiar guy n he looks exactly like my long distance relative then i approach him...i ask "are we related?" n he looks blur.. Actually he's my own patient! hahahahaha he remember me but i don't even recall him at all.

We drove to Mustafa Ctr,then along the way we saw this crowd n at first i though that someone sells things.Then there was this car blocked our way... when we drive futher i saw this indian man lying on the street... So the man that block our was is the one his the indian man.. poor guy.

last 2 days 3rd august 2008
Me n my bf went to Far east,we had lunch together then we went to Geylang-don't get me wrong...
We explore the dark side of S'pore... Prostitution... They're sexy n pretty. but they don't look local to me.

To fauzi:

Our secrets remain in our heart. i trust u n u trust me... that wat best fren is.

Lazy Day

3rd August 2008

I can't sleep now. Try to keep my eyes shut but my mind still awake. I was tired n lazy at work but i just pretend that i'm not.

Right after i knock out frm work,Hakim gave me a call n he asked me out but i'm just too tired. My mum told me that we gonna visit sara but when i reach home i slept until i overslept. i woke up at ard 8 n my mum is not ard,by that time i'm too tired to go out with hakim. Sorry Buddy... maybe some other day...

Last 2 days i went out with annisa n azua.Rashida supposed to be there also but she have to work! she's the one who planned it n she's the one who can't make it... so irritating. Annisa went off halfway-meeting her fiance... so left me n azua. We're at Orchard....n decided to do something that we never did before in our entire life.... REFLEXOLOGY hahaha i was laughing during the procedure cause it feels ticklish when someone touch my feet. haha but i don't mind going again!cause at the end of the day.... i feel great! thanks Azua for the birthday treat!

My boyfren asked me out later,maybe late afternoon.I hope he didn't cancel or forget at the very last minute.... I wonder where is he gonna bring me to.

Well,i think i wanna sleep now....

Soul Searching

29th July 2008

My sleeping day today,just finish my 2 days night at work.As usual 2nd night always suck but hings getting better when it's time to knock off soon.Well.... it's a rough week for me but i get some advise from my only friend that can be trusted Fauzi.

Last 4 days was my birthday,for those who remembers,a big THANK you.The first person to wish me n sing for me is Fauzi hehe followed by Hanis,My bf,Lilian(i didn't expect!),Fit,Nisha,Irfani,Kristel,Kakak su! & all the ward 43 staff. Really appreciate it. For those who i expected to remember-they forget n can't be bother,you know who u are. But i work afternoon shift on my bday! hehe

The next day,25th July, me,my bf,anisa,aidil,sofa,irda,mamat & hidayat went out together.We went to vivocity-catch a movies Dark Night batman.Then we had our dinner at Earl Swensen's. I was so surprise that they bought me wallet n handbag from GUESS,really appreciate it n i love it!!!!!!! the present was shared by them together with Tracy & Karen! Too bad they can't make it but i really love the present..... love u all

Today,i should have met my boyfren but when i called him just know he's at double O for the bartender competition n guess what-he didn't inform me. Well...................... i don't know. Guys are so complicated.I just can't be bothered.Whatever happen,happen...

Anyone...

13 july 2008

I tried to keep myself happy n lively but it seems i'm not being myself.I am tired n i keep on crying every night thinking.... Thinking how am i suppose to face the problems that i'm having now.
Suicide is not the answer to a problems.Everybody have their own problems....


I don't know.. i don't know... i don't know

depress

10 july 2008

i cried the whole shift at work
all my colleagus were asking wat's wrong with me but i just keep silent

only ana know my secret
i don't have anyone to talk to on that point of time





i don't deserve to live

where love is concern

9th july 2008

Where love is concern
Life wouldn't be the same
It hurts inside of me
It's healing but the scars remain


Where love is concern
It's so complicated
Up's and down
Life still go on.... Just be strong


Where love is concern
It's either we end it
Or remain it with pain
Some can bear it


But i rather let my wrist to be slit...

Tiring day....

8th July 2008

It's all my fault for sleeping late at 1 am and i have to woke up at 5 am.Super tired.Today morning shift-partner with Olive.It's great working with her! thanks Olive,for helping me out today.. really appreciate it.

Most of my patient went for procedure,a short procedure-X-ray/ct scan fetch here n there.Almost like a porter job.But,i'm getting use with it.

Thank god there's ITE student also..They help us in ward alot! thanks.
Fauzi,this for you.Well.... I know that my secret is safe with you,so i trust u alot.Thanks for being there for me when i need you the most.Please! my b'day is coming... let me list out wat i want

• Ferris wheel ride at the S'pore flyers
• Cable car ride
• DHL hot air balloon ride
• Stetoscope
• Swensens
• Fauzi,bring me to the place i've never been-club hehehe
• Wallet

Thanks....

I know you can't afford to spend all this on me but it's ok.... as long as u wish me,i'll be more than happy :)

I went out with Farid today to causeway pt. had our dinner n we left.As usual he was late,a bit upset but ok i;m fine with it. :)

Roller Coaster

5th July 2008



Today i went 2 wedding,one is at Jurong(anisa sister) the other one is at woodlands(nani brother), Alhamdulillah the solomisation went smoothly.I drove to Jurong first-thank god i'm not lost cause the place is familiar to me. After we ate etc etc i send all my frens to Teck Whye back... cause they all want Hidayat to drive his car n hang out somewhere whereby i have to go Woodlands straight..So they hang out w/o me :(.

As usual,places that i'm not used to it i will got lost,so one of the place is Woodlands :) hate it.hehe but Alhamdulillah i manage to find the place...I would like to thank Nani for the tibbits etc etc but i'm sorry i can't come on Sunday.And Yeah that's me driving...




.

Well someone just cheer me up again n again n yeah Fauzi hehe my good friend :)






That's us webcam together,almost every nite. hehe. He's a good listener and sometimes a good advisor also. :)


Last few days i went out catch a movie with Farid.. well Me and him we're ok again.

Super angry ++++

1st July 2008

Today,i'm supposed to meet my bf but guess what? he didn't bother to call or text me at all.I was angry n still angry now cause it's my off day. Fly just like that. At one moment i feel like to end this relationship n still thinking until i surf the net "how to ask for break up". i keep on calling him umpteen of time but he didn't pick up.Super angry with him.then he text me like 2030 hrs saying that he's been scolded by his supervisor,so that's mean he at work without even text me at all! i just don't understand y... he's taking me for granted,maybe he thought i don't have any feelings?????? or he just wants me to not bother him??????? or sick of me???????

i don't know...i was so upset... don't know who should i share with,i called my ex-bf but he's hopeless... nvr care or call me back or wat. Then i shared it with Fauzi,i understand he have to work n can't call me immediately but at least he's the only one that reply my msg,really appreciate it buddy.

That's him fauzi my buddy hehe,he's the one who gave me all his photos... :) Handsome boy!

out with Chunyi, Shi Hui & Rowena

29 june 2008

This is me after shower at the ward. So fresh! and actually that's the first time i shower at work cause rowena said that if u keep on showering u can spoil ur veins.So i head her advice but this time round i can't, because my patient urine + blood spilled on me! So disgusting. i have no choice.

This is my locker,it's nice outside but very messy inside...haven't had a time yet to clean up..another day maybe.. :)

We decided to go Bugis but end up going to Marina Bay by taxi,we were very tired but not tired of shopping. i bought a pair of shoes cost $39.90 frm nova.. it's a formal pair of shoes. i'll take a picture of it later hehe i'm very tired/exausted ++++++++.

I'll type again tomorrow.. muackz!

shopping with Chunyi, Joyce & mE

HeLLo... (28/06/08)

Today, i went to Bugis after work. It was unplanned... My bf supposed to meet me but he's just too tired or just can't be bothered,i don't know.Maybe he take things for granted after we've been together for 5 years.

I went shopping! spen like almost $100 on perfume-eclat & salvatore farragamo dream! n i get free original burberry cosmetic bag with 1 travel bag. hehe i am happy...

After Chunyi went to meet her frens so left me & Joyce. Joyce want to go to the ladies but unfortunately the Q was long. Therefore, we go to another ladies n it's still the same.Lastly i asked her to go to the disabled toilet... it was funny cause joyce don't wanna go because the doos were a bit weird,it's an automatic door! but i force her to go cause i just hate to wait....

We were lost after that as we were searching for 197 bus stop to jurong.. thanks to me that we manage to reach home :)....

We talk about work n yah... only me and joyce knows....

27 june 2008

My first blogger ever,

Hi,my name is Nurhidah and i'm 23 years old on 24 july.I live in a small town call Teck Whye singapore.

i work as an enrolled nurse at National University of Singapore,ward 43. I love my job.

That is my boyfriend in the picture,that gurl is obviously me hehe :).his name is md farid live in canberra rd singapore.turning 25 on this 17 december. we've been together for 5 yrs now.

i love him but i'm not crazy about him. he's crazy about me,hehe. Today,is my off day. I had a great rest,watching bruce almighty & evan almighty.

i chat with fauzi(he's the man),i knew him before i knew my bf.good looking,got a nice tattoo n he's single. i wish i am single so that i can date anybody i want hehe. but it won't happen because my bf is crazy about me. he'll do anything to get me. well like i shared... i love him but i'm not crazy about him.